Singing Thoughts

I really feel this text. I've always had underlying anxiety. When I was at school, I was always the "shy" girl who never liked to be picked on for answers, even though I knew them. I just hid at the back of the class, hoping to be invisible. The girl who was scared to go to Birthday parties or school discos because of how shy and insecure I was. The girl who melted into herself and hid away because I was too worried about what the other children would say and whether they would pick on me or call me names. It wasn't seen as anxiety when I was at school, it was just shyness. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ When I left my previous job as a receptionist/administrator, I was emotionally and mentally crippled. My anxieties had reached new highs and my mental health had reached new lows. I was shocked at what my mind could conjure up and what I could make myself think without even meaning to. It was scary. It was a very dark time. Covid-19 was adding ...

 

 

 

  "The only heaven I'll be sent to, is when I'm alone with you..." -Hozier-Take Me To Church-

  "The (500) Days of Summer attitude of “He wants you so bad” seems attractive to some women and men, especially younger ones, but I would encourage anyone who has a crush on my character to watch it again and examine how selfish he is. He develops a mildly delusional obsession over a girl onto whom he projects all these fantasies. He thinks she’ll give his life meaning because he doesn’t care about much else going on in his life. A lot of boys and girls think their lives will have meaning if they find a partner who wants nothing else in life but them. That’s not healthy. That’s falling in love with the idea of a person, not the actual person." Joseph Gordon-Levitt

 

 

 

 Fleetwood Mac have always been and will always be my favourite band. The music evokes emotions of happiness, sadness, loss, jealousy, passion, hatred, despair and utter love. Silver Springs is probably my favourite song by Fleetwood Mac because it encapsulates all of those emotions in to one song.

"I said no-one has to know what we do... His hands are in my hair - his clothes are in my room..."  - Taylor Swift - Wildest Dreams - 

 My current favourite lyrics: 🎶🎶🎶🎶🎶 "I had all and then most of you, some and now none of you..." - Lord Huron - The Night We Met -  🎶🎶🎶🎶🎶 "If I can't change the weather, maybe I can change your mind,. If we can't be together, what's the point of life?" - Lord Huron - Wait by the River -  🎶🎶🎶🎶🎶 "I should let this go...  I could be your water, instead I'll put on my coat, I could hear you stall in the way you said, "Is it alright to feel how I do right now?" I got caught up in the skylight and the words just all came out wrong..." - Novo Amor - Decimal -  🎶🎶🎶🎶🎶 "When I say you are killing me, I'm merely saying that the past six hours have felt like one" "When I say you are killing me, I'm merely saying that the past six days have felt like one..." - Ten Kills the Pack - When I say you are killing me - 🎶🎶🎶🎶🎶 "I knew, I'd have a bad time shaking you..." - Novo Amor - ...